There has been some months since I shared my deepest thoughts and feelings with you, mainly because I have been very busy but also at the same time trying to analyze why those posts where I show my vulnerability always gets a massive respons. Surely, its always interesting to learn what a person is feeling on a deeper level. Especially in todays society where many are so caught up in creating a illusion that they are living a perfect life when reality is actually the quite opposite. The question remind unanswered, people have written and asked me that I should write columns. The idea is very tempting, yet I wasn’t convinced.
When I write, it comes from the heart. Its like the whole world disappears and my hands starts moving by them self. Out comes the feelings that my heart carries, it can be sorrow, it can be hope, it can be reflections but its all me – shutting off the filter. There are few people who live their lives without filter, who are truly free from the other opinions and judgements. We want to think that we’re free in ourselves but I see so many lie to themselves. I am not the one to pass judgements on others, I just like to analyze.
But when I write, I write for myself. The big bonus is that others relate and appreciate the honesty. I’m not looking for anyones sympathy or opinion for that matter. This morning while running I was listening to a podcast and the woman who has being interviewed said that she felt relief when her friend said she was going through the same thing. It just dawned on me. Relate, not feeling like we’re being the only person who has those feelings or thoughts. You’re not the only one feeling lonely, you’re not the only once feeling sad or whatever the feeling is keeping you captured. That’s why I guess so many has reached out and still does to this day when they read my posts about these things. Whats worse is that we think others is going to think less of us if they see the insecurities. Well, let me say this from a personal stand point: if they do, they were never worth your time anyway. Just be happy you’ve seen their true colors and move. Life is too short to spend thinking about what others think when the only thing that really matters is what you think. You’re never going to be happy if
At the end of the day, if they’re judging you that means they’re judging themselves much harder and level of selfsame is most likely incredibly low. Today, I take pride in being transparent, showing vulnerability and speaking my unfiltered mind. To be free at heart and a free spirit means to let others be as equally their own free person – and respect that.